Fertile

Emily and I went to a psychic fair in November, soon after we returned from our totally transformational Miami trip. We went mainly to get our aura pictures taken. Em's was blue, ALL BLUE (caring, nurturing, lives out of heart and emotions, difficulty saying no, intuitive). Mine was yellow, orange and gold (intelligent, sunny, creative, independent, spiritually minded, divinely protected).

Included with our pictures was a psychic reading. What I remember most about the reading, was the psychic telling me that I was in an extremely fertile phase....mostly because my thoughts immediately jumped to unplanned pregnancy. Bad idea. To be honest, I wasn't really sure what he meant at the time...but let me tell you, I sure understand it Now.

It's been just over 3 months since I returned from Miami, and I can say without a doubt that this has been the most consciously powerful creative time in my life. I now understand that most of the experiences in my life, the connections I have made, the people I have met, have been leading to This particular Moment in time. I feel as though I have awakened from a long slumber to find that my world is ripe with possibility. Everywhere I turn, there are new opportunities, new people and new potentials. I am struck by lightning bolt ideas on a weekly basis that I MUST put into practice, right Now. I have the intuitive sense that I am planting the seeds that will grow into the vast, abundant forest of my future, as long as I nurture them with all the patience, dedication and love I can muster.

I am so blessed.

Have a great weekend everybody! I'll be tending to my garden...(and partying a little of course!!)

Gratitude/Appreciation List

To be truthful, I'm feeling kind of down in the dumps. I don't know if I am picking up on energetic frequency related to Blue Monday, or if this is the consequence of releasing a bunch of old stuff in my yoga class yesterday morning. Whatever the reason, I thought I'd write a gratitude/appreciation list to try to pull myself out of it.

I am happy and grateful because:
1. I am healthy, with full use of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual capabilities.
2. I have a loving and supportive family that is 100% behind me at all times.
3. I have a beautiful condo in downtown Toronto.
4. I am surrounded by an abundance of beautiful friendships, both old and new.
5. I have a closet full of shoes!
6. I'm having a facial tonight.
7. My calling has recently been revealed to me.
8. Many things have miraculously fallen into place since that happened.
9. There is beautiful, soul stirring, gut wrenching music in the world.
10. I have 2 parties to go to on Friday night with many different friends.
11. I am re-starting taiko drumming classes tomorrow night.
12. I am blessed with constant opportunities for change, growth and evolution.
13. Of Lynne.
14. Westies are the cutest dogs on earth.
15. I'm having lunch in 5 minutes and I will get a nice hug.
16. There's chocolate on the table at work.
17. My friend at work bought my Americano for me this morning.
18. I can see the good in most situations.
19. That sometimes simple things touch me so much, I cry.
20. That I have this blog as an outlet of expression.

Basketball

Perhaps this was only funny to me because I got 3 hours of sleep, and am teetering precariously close to the edge of delerium.

Last night, I hit an "exclusive" club/lounge here in Toronto called Cache with a bunch of new girlfriends. I didn't even know it existed, and it's one of those places that's hidden in an alleyway between 2 streets, where you have to know the owner or security or be on some list to get in. Whatever. All I know is that hitting a club/lounge on a Wednesday night, having 3 shots and 2 drinks (when you don't normally drink), and then hooking up with The Boy, the night before a work day is not a very smart idea. I'm running on fumes here...and I fear, they are alcohol fumes.

Unsurprisingly, I woke up late for work this morning. So, we jumped in a cab and hightailed it uptown. As the cabbie handed me back my change, I simultaneously reached forward to grab my receipt, accidently hit his outstretched hand, and watched as the twoonie arced gracefully towards the open ashtray and landed smack dab in the centre with a pleasing clink.

Somehow, this struck me as totally ridiculous, and I burst into gales of hysteria. Yeah, I know. It probably wasn't that funny. But like I said, I'm running on fumes.

Is it the weekend yet?

Images of the Mind

I'm having a day that is equally strange, and wickedly awesome. The coincidences, and examples of magical thinking just keep piling up. These incidents trip me out just as much as they confirm my belief that "life is images of the mind expressed." Why? Because it keeps happening, and I keep noticing. I suppose this is a by-product of observing my thoughts, and making the connection between what I'm thinking, and the manifesting of that thought soon afterwards.

Examples from today:

1. Before I left my condo this morning, I was listening to a song called 100 Billion Stars by Lux. I had to turn it off midway through because I was already late for work. As I turned it off, I was thinking, I really wish I could listen to that song again, it's so beautiful. Then I put on my iPod Shuffle headphones, and yup, guess what it shuffled to? 100 Billion Stars. Of course. That made me smile. Later in the day, I told a co-worker about this strange "coincidence," and when I returned to my desk, guess what song was playing on my speakers. Yup. 100 Billion Stars. Now that....that made me laugh.

2. Once I got to work, I headed to Starbucks for my daily Americano ritual. I had exactly $2.65 in my wallet which is enough for a Grande. While in line, I was thinking, I could really use a Venti today (didn't go to bed until 4AM!), too bad I don't have more money. Then I ordered, paid my $2.65, and waited at the barista bar. Lo and behold, somehow they screwed up, and I ended up with a Venti!!! Yeah, weird.

3. There's this guy at work named Robert, that is somehow on this strange Energy Meridian with me. Everytime I go somewhere, he suddenly appears or vice versa. It's really odd. It's happened so much that we have a running joke about, "get off my energy grid, you're sucking me dry," kinda thing. Today, he came over to my desk, and I said, "guess what? I bought another condo yesterday," and he says, "Yeah I know. I was just coming over to tell you that I saw you yesterday in a sales centre on Queen Street." He was driving by in his car, looked over for a split second, and saw me standing there. Ultimate weirdness.

I'm pretty tripped out, but hyper at the same time. Even though these are small things, they give me confidence that there is a link between what I'm thinking, and what's manifesting in my life. I feel like I'm on the brink of something huge. I haven't quite grasped it, but it's there. It feels like trying to remember a word, hearing it rattle around in your head, but not quite being able to articulate it.

All I know for sure is that I'm holding an image in my head of the life I wish to live, and it is exactly what I desire. Data collection is over for me. I'm in the creation phase. I have nothing to do but wait and be grateful. Because I already have everything I need.

Intention and Clarity

This is from an eNewsletter I receive. I wanted to share it with all of you. Enjoy.

Question: How do I break out of this negative cycle and step into the prosperity of life in my marriage, finances, emotions. Heck, just all of it? I would like to believe that it is in front of my face. I need to know what to do to make it happen so I can see it, feel it and taste it.

Answer: Thank you for bringing forth such a delightful question. Your question is one that may contribute to many because we all live in this world and exist within the polarity of positive and negative vibration. Giving you a place to begin, recognize that within an environment, a city, a home, or a business - within any type of environment you'll find a spinning of energy. This energy is a mixture of spinning emotion, thought or collective vibration. When you step into any place or environment this collective vibration combines with the spinning of your vibration. If you are not strongly rooted in your sense of yourself, with a strong definition of where you want to point your attention and your intention, you get sucked into the vacuum of the collective vibration of what you have just stepped
into. Then your vibration weakens in its energy and the collective vibration begins to strengthen in its energy.

I am pointing you in a direction to gain understanding of the dynamics of collective energy. This way you can understand that some of the things that have occurred in your life that feel negative are not necessarily from your direct intention. Rather they are related more to your lack of intention. If you do not have a direct clear plan, and if you have not specified where you would like to direct your thoughts, life, dreams and visions what happens is you emerge with the spinning vibration around you. You become that to which you connect.

What I would do if in your being is gain clarity. Look at what is in your environment. Specify all your environments including your home, your city, your family. Examine all of them and ask yourself who around you is supportive, who around you is understanding and has compassion, and who around you is not. Begin to create clarity within these relationships. Perhaps what you could do is define those who are not supportive and ask them to be supportive. If you recognize that their nature can not be supportive then you need to strengthen your vibration when around them. Become clearer about what you wish and turn towards your intention. You may begin to notice the dynamics of the relationship begin to automatically balance itself. This is a result of your clarity. Others become more supportive because they sense your self-definition.

You can also do this with any area of you life. Take your job, career, dreams, visions and desires for abundance. Begin to fuel the dreams connected to all of these areas. When you have doubt say, "Oh doubt has come into my nature. What is it wanting to point me to?" Notice where your fears lie and then gather them and place them into your heart. Use your thoughts to place them within your heart. Say to your fears, "Ok, doubts or fears, go ahead and blend in my heart. Take a nice deep breath and release. Next, invite in possibility. Begin to visualize. Think about what would bring you happiness. Now turn towards those thoughts and images. Turn towards that which you choose to create magnificently in your life and give those thoughts power. You now are creating attention to an intention. This becomes fuel. You are creating a velocity. You are creating a vibration. You are creating a tornado of energy within the nature of your intention. Now, when you step into a room, instead of that room consuming you, you will draw to you whatever is in the room that matches your vibration. Assistance will come to you and it will build with your energy. You will find the results that you wish to create.

Your question is really about intention. It is really about attention and it is about becoming clear.